Mthokizisi Ndaba Talks About How Losing Out To Paxton On Idols SA Depressed Him
Mthokozisi on loss and how his plans changed after losing.
Mthokizisi Ndaba Talks About How Losing Out To Paxton On Idols SA Depressed Him. It’s rare for people who lost out on competitions to express how depressing it can be and can make one lose his/her self in the process, Mthokozisi Ndaba is one of that few and has detailed how losing to Paxton on Idols took a huge toll on him.
“I just wanted to be alone and cry. My goal was to get to the top 10 and I achieved it. But once I was in the top 10 I became greedy,” he admits.
“I saw myself winning. Suddenly people were falling in love with my music and I was no longer prepared to lose.”
It’s now six months after the Idols fallout and Mthokozisi admits he couldn’t cope with not taking the title.
“But at the same time in the back of my mind I knew I wasn’t going to win. Day by day I was losing myself, I was emotionally weak and drained and I didn’t want to be there anymore.”
“I was homesick and there was too much pressure. I couldn’t take it anymore. I wanted to pull out of the competition but the Idols team said no.”
This claim is disputed by the show’s spokesperson, Nondumiso Mabece, who is “concerned” by Mthokozisi’s account of events.
“We don’t force contestants to be part of Idols SA. We understand contestants get tired because the competition is strenuous. But on a weekly basis we give them support to ensure they are ready for the competition.” said Mabece.
Mthokozisi wades in again. “I wasn’t myself at all [that night]. I wanted to make my sister, my community and my fans proud of me. I couldn’t take the defeat.”
Winning the title of SA Idol would have meant he and his family “could be taken out of poverty”.
“I could have built a proper home for us. It would’ve meant a better life and enhancing my music career. “
“I could see my dreams and everything I’d worked for being trashed in front of my eyes. I was in a very bad space.”
Source : DRUM
